guess im a dummy

guess just cuz im insecure that makes me a dummy like i cant see what goes on in front of me... its always paranoia or something dumb thats in my head and not based in reality...i dont see the smiles or hear the laughter caused by other men im not ignored for this either .. maybe my phone should get a couple of friends too maybe i should have some one to chat with and be merry with it not being "work " related guess ill try this later some time soon my very own online journal for everyone to read.